I asked Ry when we were out at lunch whether I should blog about my dating life, I've got some good stories; she hears them all. I know when I edit my life, this blog becomes an impersonal list of things I've done for the day and its why I've had trouble blogging and keeping up with my joint IG account (sorry Jane) of late. I can either write whats going on in my thoughts and life, or nothing at all.
I tossed and turned all night, leaving me feeling out of sorts today, and kind of down. It took awhile to figure out why, and then I relaized it was because I hurt someone. Like I said yesterday, the gentleman I had been seeing, was kind, mannerly, a really good guy, and we were very compatible, but there were some areas important to me, that we didn't line up on, and he was blindsided when I told him I didn't see a future for us; he had already been planning trips to take as a couple...we'd only been on four dates. That's when the phrase, "When you know, you know," popped into my head. I have yet to experience that.
Because Im out of sorts, I decided to do mindless things around the house, like organizing my closet and dresser drawers, both still in chaos from the move. Of course doing mindless things allows for wandering, sometimes anxiety provoking thoughts, such as my unemployment, and why can't being a professioanl homemaker be a thing.
I found another piece of art tucked away in a bin, that I was able to hang up. It too was a gift, given becasue of it's supposed resemblance to me. Ok...maybe I see it.
"I supposse all great happiness is a little sad." -F. Scott Fitzgerald.
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